Thoughts

Sometimes words pop into my head

Effortlessly and it begins to thread

And weave into something I wasn’t expecting.

Something like a poem or story I’m telling.

Then all of a sudden I’m super distracted

By the words flowing so smoothly. I feel I contracted

Some type of illness that lets my words flow,

My mind goes free and my pen just goes.

It’s funny sometimes because I notice

When I have things to do I tend to focus

On the ease of words and rhymes flowing.

Most of the time I don’t even know where this is going.

So I just let my pen in hand do the talking.

These thoughts don’t move fast, it feels like they’re walking

And taking their time picking my brain

Of the right words to say and to be able to explain

That when I allow my pen to keep moving,

I feel this energy, it’s something soothing.

Like I’m doing what I’m meant to do, which explains the ease.

It’s my superpower, it feels like I’m freed.

It’s amazing how things just work the way they do.

When you let go and you feel an energy fly through you.

Like a river my thoughts are put onto paper;

Free flowing, unstoppable, one with my nature.

It’s a beautiful feeling, I truly am blessed

To have the ability of not putting some thoughts to rest.

To the Universe

I want to thank the universe today

For all the blessings that have come my way.

Your help and guidance and love

Fills me with peace from above.

I know that I am special and I mean a lot to you.

I know this because of what I am able to do;

To make light of struggles and still be able to shine,

To feel the love and strength from the divine.

My energy and life is fueled by you.

To the universe, thank you for all that you do.

Combustible

This feeling is light and carefree,

Feeling bubbly and perky as can be.

It’s a feeling of the highest self.

A weight lifted, a floating feeling.

Yet, combustible.

Like any second an explosion could begin

And a domino effect –

The mind slips, anxiety forms, and here it is.

Back to that feeling of loneliness, sadness, and grief.

Not for anything in particular,

Just for me.

For the helplessness of succumbing to this feeling.

But right now, it’s nonexistent.

It’s the potential crisis they’re not aware of;

Loved ones, strangers.

A glow comes from this being in this higher state of mind,

However, this mind is not always so kind.

It takes strength to suppress the devastation of the soul

When the mind refuses to allow the highest form to grow.

Try with all your might,

Never rest a day.

You’ll find your highest self through each success in every day.

And though it may seem like a journey in the rough,

There will be the day when you say “I’ve had enough”.

Your Broken Heart

I know it breaks your heart
Knowing that she’s over you,
Knowing that she’s happy being on her own,
Knowing that you’re nothing to her now.

She knows what you did
And it hurt her,
But she doesn’t care anymore.
It has no effect on her or her life
Because you’re finally out of it.

It’s a pity to be you.
You know what you did,
But you still want to see her
To ‘strictly catch up’.

You know that’s not all you want
And so does she.
You’d plead to know who’s new in her life
And she’d laugh
Because she’ll know you’re just being nosey.

Then,
You’d fight with her,
Call her names,
Try to insult her,
But again, she’ll just laugh
And then she’d say
‘It’s a pity to be you.’

You want to know things about her
So that you feel like you’re still apart of her,
But you’re not.
You never will be again.

You’re nothing to her now,
But a small wrong turn in the past.
The one person she thought that could’ve help her
Wound up hurting her the most.

She doesn’t care anymore.
Although there was no apology
She forgave you
So she could move on.
So she wouldn’t be stuck.

But you realize
You’re the one that’s stuck.
You miss her.
You know you messed up
And it breaks your heart.